Mommy and Me time

“Unless someone like you cares a awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It’s not.” Dr Seuss, The Lorax

So this Saturday Sofia and I headed out to he movies by ourselves. I had never taken her to a movie alone before. We haven't gone to very many because in the past she has never sat still for most of the movie and I end up walking out with her half way through. But in an effort to get her used to just being with just me. Her mima my mom has been living with us this past year and William usually comes with but they are both leaving us soon. My mom is heading back to the states to take care of a few loose ends and she won't be back for a few months..daddy is getting ready for a deployment. I thought it would be the perfect opportunity for her and I to start getting used to being just a duo for a while.

Well our little adventure went great. We got in the car and jammed out to her favorite songs. We were able to listen to Katy Perry "Firework", Martin Sloveig and Dragonette "Hello", and by the Glee Cast "Marry you" originally by Bruno Mars. Needless to say that got her pumped up and in a great mood on the car ride over to base. She loves to sing her little heart out in the car just like me. We jam she shakes her legs and nods her head. It's probably my favorite part of the day when we are out.

Anywho we got in got her favorite popcorn and then the greatest movie I have watched with her started.

She absolutely loved it. She sat happily clapping, pointing and singing along to the movie. It was so bright and colorful and the songs and message were great. I very much loved that this really was a kid movie. No silly adult humor with jokes that toddlers don't get. I mean don't get me wrong I like movies like Shrek. But it was nice to watch a movie where it was just pure and sweet, cute and toddler friendly.

The movie had a great theme of caring about the environment that was consistent through out. It was very wholesome and excellently executed. Kudos to Universal pictures. I have not bought a movie on dvd in a while this will be on our buy list for sure.

oh and on the way to the car Sofia stated That was cool mommy! So The Lorax has two thumbs up from my little 3 year old.

here is the trailer.




till next time.

Doris =)

seems like I forgot about this here place

well its been months..I just have not had time to get on here and write about me.... i have been super busy working on my fitness! Since November I am down about 35lbs now .. slowly loosing this jelly... I have been eating healthy ... counting calories, cutting carbs and sugar ...eating at home more and working out at least 1 hour 5 times a week. After I get done loggin my calories and workout leaves me little time or energy to do anything else lol.


I do love reading other blogs and occasionally if I have something to write about Ill come on over here for anyone that stumbles upon this..but for now ciao ciao see you at the gym!

Winston

On Tuesday November 29, 2011 we had to put one of our doggies. Winston to sleep. The day before he herniated a disc and was completely paralyzed in the hind legs an lost his bladder function as well. It was a very random and out of the blue thing that happened. He was such an active dog and then the other day he came inside dragging his body with his front legs. At first we thought he got out and was hit by a car or something. We took him to the vet asap and the doctor checked him out and figured out what was wrong immediately. HE got a shot of cortisone to see if it would stimulate him and overnight he just seemed to take a turn for the worse. The next day we went back to the doctor and Winston front legs had become stiff. We could barley move him without him being in pain. It was very heart breaking to see him suffer so much. The spirit in him already seemed gone. He was barley holding on I think. He made no sound and just had a blank look on his face. After speaking with the vet we made the decision to let him go so he would not continue to suffer.

The process of putting him to sleep was very quick and seemed painless for him. I did not want to leave him alone as this happened so we opted to stay in the room and talk to Winston and pet him and just be with him. It was very sad and heart breaking but I am glad that I was able to be with him in his last moments.

Being here in Italy and it being an emergency vet they did not have facilities there to cremate him or hold on too him. We had to take him home and bury him ourselves in our yard. It was all so surreal but thinking on it now a few days later I am glad he is here at home with us. =/


I wasn't always Winston biggest fan. To be honest I was very vocal about how annoying he was too me. I feel so horrible that I did not pet him more, love on him and just praise the great qualities he did have. He was very playful once he got over his nervousness and he was very sweet and cuddly once he was sure he was comfy with you. A great friend to our other dog Lola and no other little dog could jump as high or be as agile as him. He really was a character.


anyway we have all been thinking about Winston and believe it or not missing his barking through out the day.

Ciao Winston see ya again some day.

Heat Wave

Gosh golly gee it is hot up in Friuli right now. We have all concrete in our courtyard and I'm pretty sure it's not as hot just outside my gate. The temp is 39 outside which is 102 us Americanos! It's times like these where I'm like oh Italy why why? Don't get me wrong I love Italy. I have loved it so much I am staying an extra 3 years than what we were suppose to stay. But sheesh this summer has been the worst. More worse then when I was pregnant over the summer. This house is old. This house has horrible insulation. The portable a/c's don't really do the trick for this big living room. Le sigh

some one pass the Sangria please...

The token Fat Girl

::disclaimer::
These are my thoughts. They are not intended for or directly about anyone in particular. I am typing away because well I feel like typing. This is my blog. I don't have many followers and if you don't like what you read. Sorry but there are like a million blogs out there. Go check one of those out instead. I bet you will get another heart bubble in your quality of life meter if you do!

" I truly believe that every time you make fun of the way another person looks, it makes you look a little uglier. Try to remember that the next time you are pointing a finger at someone else and making fun of the way they look that there will most likely be another person behind you pointing a finger your way." Jacqueline Laurita

I will state that I am totally guilty of having a moment when I see an outfit at the commissary and think to myself..What in Lucifer's fanny pack is this? But I don't say it out loud. And well your clothes you can easily change up. But your physical appearance takes great effort to improve or change.

It's funny that as an adult I have had a few instances of people basically name calling and judging me because I am an overweight person. You would think that grown ups wouldn't name call especially about someone's appearance. But nope even as an almost 30 year old you are still being judged.(Oh and I totally have named called back to the person directly attacking me. I mean I ain't gonna pretend I'm all classy all the time.)



It stings in the moment. I had a nasty blog comment once. The person was trying to make a point but in the end they lost their point and ended up reverting to name calling. After the heat in my face went away out of embarassment and shock. I re read the comment and thought Wow really. All you wanted to say was you suck I don't like you and you obviously suck at life because you are obese. Obese is the word they used. Not sure why they thought that was the nice way of saying things. It's not FYI. Maybe if you are my doctor using that word. But anyone else not so much.

Well recently I have put on more weight than what has been normal for me(Even though my normal is still severely over weight). I lost a lot of weight when I first got to Italy. I dealt with depression after my dad died suddenly a few days after we moved here. I was in a new country and well I cried and slept all day. Miraculously instead of putting on weight I actually literally wasted myself away in the body mass index aspect. I surprisingly got pregnant shortly after but didn't know it. After I had my daughter I did manage to take off nearly all the weight I had put on during my pregnancy by the time I had my postpartum check up. I attribute that to exclusively breast feeding in that time and beyond. That weight loss was short lived. By the time my daughter was 1 year old I was 15lbs heavier than when I got pregnant. Anyway why am i telling you all of this?

I don't know really I am awake and I felt like typing. I'm a bit scattered brained at the moment. So if you made it this far. Thanks. I guess what I am trying to say is judgy mean people suck. In my experience it's not the beautiful people who have made fun of me. So lame right?

on to the next story....

When I was about 8 months pregnant I was out and needed to stop quickly at an atm. I was on base at Area 1 and I had wanted to use that special "Expectant Mother parking" for a long time But up to that point I had not used it. I always thought Oh I could park here it's so much more closer but I always thought well Im ok I can walk so I held off using that parking for most of my pregnancy. Anyway so that day I was in a hurry and there wasn't any spots anywhere really but that one. So I was like what the heck let me park here. So I did. I parked and got out. As I walked to the ATM with my peripheral vision I could see someone walking very quickly towards me. Just as I got to the ATM a woman came barreling towards me very fussy, she was in uniform and pregnant. She says "Are You even pregnant!?" It was very loud. Loud and rude enough that three other people walking by stopped and stared at us. I kind of froze for a second because I was so caught off guard and started to feel very humiliated ..like I was 12 years old and being made fun. I was probably as red as ever. So in what seemed like time stopped and all eyes were on me. I just barley looked up and with tears welling up I said yes. She said something else and then walked away. I have no idea what she said because I couldn't hear a thing because on the inside I was just crying.

I got back in my car and the tears started to come down my cheeks. As I searched for my keys I started to get angry. I put my hands on the steering wheel and let out a sigh and then thought. hold up wtf. No this B did not. I just sat there and said wow did this just happen to me. I called my friend Laney and told her what happened and she started yelling me at for not saying anything back to this woman lol.

Oh and this is me at 8 months



I totally feel like I looked pregnant. But maybe I just looked bigger to everyone else. Oh well Forget them. I must admit I felt my most pretty ..the most beautiful I have ever felt in my life when I was that pregnant. My husband was over the moon with my looks more so than ever at that time. He has always made me feel special and pretty but it was just a special time for us. We were very well settled in our marriage and ourselves. Things were just bliss full then and still we are happy but it was just awesome. I finally was dealing and going through those final stages of Grief. Where I was no longer so sad and I was looking forward to being a mom.

So regardless of what that lady said to me that day. She may have chipped at my invis-chub shield a tiny bit but she made no dent. And really she was just mad I got to that parking spot first!

So what I am saying is. Regardless of whatever it is that chips away at your self esteem. Try and remember that your looks do not defy you. Try your best to cope or if you can change whatever it is that you beat yourself up about. You are worth it. People who go around in life judging and making ridiculous assumptions about the quality and happiness of your life being directly tied to your appearance. Well they are just straight ignorant. Just because you are not physically or emotionally perfect by their standards. It has no bearing on who you are as a person or what may or may not be missing in your life. Just saying. Keep it moving. Be happy. Be yourself. Say what you mean to say and do unto others as you would have them do unto you. They teach you the Golden Rule in Kindergarten for a reason!

Not saying you need to walk around in life like you have glitter up your hoo ha and everything is peachy keen. I just want you all to know. You rock and anyone telling that you don't should go the left ..to the left.

Oh well I was totally going to tell you a story about how I am the token fat girl around these parts. But I will save it for another time. Don't worry I know My stories are awesome. Whenever I get the inspiration I try to type away and use it as a way to bless you all with my Wisdom. Instead of seeking vengeance and ranting. I will channel my energy into these stories and life tid bits for all my readers. I will no longer be diluting my emotions and thoughts with fodder about nothing. Nope I am going to be super self righteous and pretend I know what I am talking about and a jack of all trades. I am totally a writer! I mean I have spell check. That totally makes me an awesome and legit writer? I mean I have read some articles and there are people out in the world who claim to be verbal ninjas and still miss use your and you're.


OK ciao. I am going to go bed now. Until next time.

It's been a while... eek

Hey guys. If anyone is reading this. It's been a while since I have felt like blogging. Lots has been going on around here. We are all well and things are peachy keen for the most part.

The hubby is away for a few weeks. We have missed him greatly. Especially Sofia. It is so sad she asks for him all the time and cries after our skype dates when daddy goes night night. It's pretty heart wrenching to go through. I don't know how people with more than 1 child get through it. It's hard stuff. But I have been doing my best to spend extra time staying active with her ..going to the park , letting her splash outside everyday pretty much in her pool..or jump on the trampoline. We color, we dance, we play makeup and hair ..we watch toy story, cars, and nemo a lot! And we have tea parties with Dora the explorer, Swiper, Pupcake, Custard the Cat, Jessie and bulls eye, oh and this huge Duck who I like to call Fred. So we are having fun.

I also made some wonderful new friends who I am starting to feel like i have known them forever. Two lovely families and one of them has a little girl too. They are so awesome and they are constantly inviting Sofia and I over so it's been a great help to have friends trying to keep us busy. I love my new and old friends so much. They are all so awesome!

Hubby should be home soon and I am excited to hit up the beach some more this summer. Sofia had a blast the last time we went and I plan on going as many times as we can this year.

Evidence of Sofia having fun!
Oh let's see what else..oh my little girl is in the process of getting her big girl panties! lol. Potty Training is in full effect. It is going well. I started and then stopped and then this second time around things are going great. I downloaded the 3 day potty method but eh that didn't work for us. Well maybe it does work just im not much a dictator. I had to ease her into it over like a week to just sit on the dang potty. I have 3 different types of potty's she finally found one she didn't need to scream when looking at it. She likes the type you just sit on the regular bowl. She has the cutest ducky potty that is now a step stool so that is cool. Any who she says the most hilarious things when she is doing her business. She apologies to her number 1's by saying "I'm sorry stinky water" lol kids say the funniest things. I am not sure why she started calling her number 1 stinky water. I was telling her pee pee ..but she decided to name it stinky water. She tells me when she has to go. And stays dry pretty much all the time while we are at home.

I have not taken her out with big girl undies yet. We have pull ups for going out. I know I need to take the next step but I think I will wait to try that out when William is back since he missed out on all this fun beginning of potty training.

At one point during the early stages I seriously thought about not trying to have any other kids. But now it's fun to see her get the hang of it. She loves getting stickers and wants bubbles after she flushes. LOL Ahh kids.


Ok enough about that. I am good. I am happy. I am happy to be drama free. I have seen a lot of things on FB with other people I know and all I think is praise baby Jesus that I am not worrying or trying to be remotely involved with any shenanigans. It really makes life that much more happy to not hold onto grudges then let people live rent free in your mind. More people should try it more often.

I want to also say. I have read a lot of I hate Aviano. Or Aviano is the worst place to go too..Or everyone in Aviano is full of crazy ..Or it's crap or this or that ..or that pcsing here bites. Honestly everyone's experience will be unique. Not everyone is the same or will take the things life throws at them and be able to handle it and move on and be merry. I have seen lots of people pcs back to the USA since my 4 years here. And ya know what more than half of those people are still complaining about the new stateside base they are now at. So really it is what you make it of it. Come here with your mind free and clear ..expect some speed bumps and make it work.


Ciao. D

O Happy Day

Today is my birthday. I had lunch with my best girlfriends here. I am so happy they all took the time out in their day to come have lunch and hang out for a few hours. It really really made my day. I also got really sad because well next year at this time half the ladies there won't be here anymore. It is finally starting to sink in that all my friendships I have made here in Italy are all going to be moving away before I do. lol I know it won't be goodbye forever but i am finally starting to feel sick to my stomach realizing we have another tour here basically. We got here in 2007 and won't be leaving till 2014 eek!

any who a picture of half of us. I totally forgot that I had my camera with me and some of the ladies had already left. If I knew how to photo shop I would photo shop them in just for giggles! lol




Thank you Jackie D,, Melissa L., Rebecca E., Amanda G., Jen S., Diana S, and Hayley for coming out and spending some time with me. Love you girls.


Yay for friends. I hope that your next birthday is just as nice as mine has been. =)

ciao,

D